We’re moving to acceptance now. Acceptance that we’re probably going to split up. It doesn’t matter how much you love each other if one of the fundamentals you need in a relationship is changing.
I will get the blame, perhaps rightly so, though I will myself choose to blame the illness that was my untreated gender dysphoria. I have to do this because if I don’t … the idea that I am spoiling my wife & daughters lives for something so apparently trivial as to be able to be happy as who I am, something many, many others never achieve for a myriad of reasons … Well, I just can’t cope with that and nor can I go back … that way also leads to darkness.
I’m just sorry, so very, very sorry to my daughter and to my wife. I didn’t mean this to happen.