Guilty rollercoaster

Aaaand … my mood is back up again. That was a good old dip over the last few weeks, a really bad Monday/Tuesday with pretty dark thoughts … but they left in the night. Strange.

So I’m more rational again, perhaps too rational, as I’m swinging towards the thought that a lifetime of my unhappiness is a fair price to pay for my daughter to grow up in a two-parent household. My trigger was thinking about family holidays – we’ve always said we’d take her to Disneyland when she was old enough, which is going to be next summer … or about 6 months after I’m *due* to be at the GIC and 3 months after I *hope* to have started hormones.

This is guilt talking, I know, but its not unfounded. What should I do?

 

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